I just don't know what to think any more. I want to be happy but it seems like I'm not aload to be. But at the same time I know that things could be a lot worse. I miss people I shouldn't and don't miss people that I should. I keep hoping to just be happy, I don't even want to be with someone...thats not what I'm asking for. Yes it would be a plus but if me being alone means I'm happy then I will deal with it. But right now I'm not happy, shool and work are getting to me, I'm broke, and I have no idea what I am going to do with my life. I feel like I'm just putting on an act and covering up the way I really feel and trying to make it all look better. I just don't know waht to think anymore...